This morning as I awakened, my mind drifted into a peace that it hasn't felt in eleven days. My children are home! Last night they arrived with the stories of a wonderful vacation shared with their grandparents. Souvenirs were displayed, stories were told, and hugs exchanged. Great. Big. Bear. Hugs!
There is nothing quite as comforting as waking up knowing exactly where your children are- because their heads are lying only feet away from you. Whew...I can breath a little deeper today. Thank you God.
So this morning I am coasting. Happy to have my children in one place, under my own roof. Happy to have a few weeks left of summer to be lazy and carefree. Coasting...
Looking back, I realize that this has been an entire year of coasting for Sara Ashley and her learning differences. Unlike the years leading up to this one, we have had an almost pain-free normal year of school, friendships, extracurricular activities, and academics. Actually, we have had a stellar year. With her award winning essay, Character Award, interest in horseback riding, and several new friendships formed, it has been a groundbreaking year. This coasting thing is becoming very comfortable. And that makes me nervous.
When things are going so right, do you begin to wonder when they will inevitably start going wrong?
This is called fear and it has the power to altar my perspective tremendously.
Fear is nothing new to me. It's something that I'm not proud of and I work hard every day not to let it control me. But it still rears its ugly head on more occasions than I would like to admit. Faith, courage and love are the antithesis of fear. Upon discovering that this year of coasting is creating fear in my mind, I have begun to pray for faith and courage. Prayer can provide answers. The fruit of my prayer and what God has asked me to remember is found in these verses.
A Time for Everything
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8, 11
1 There is an appointed time for everything. And there is a time for
every event under heaven-
2 A time to give birth and a time to die; A time to plant and a time
to uproot what is planted.
3 A time to kill and a time to heal; A time to tear down and a time to build up.
4 A time to weep and a time to laugh; A time to mourn and a time to dance.
5 A time to throw stones and a time to gather stones. A time to embrace and a time to shun embracing.
6 A time to search and a time to give up as lost; A time to keep and time to throw away.
7 A time to tear apart and a time to sew together. A time to be silent and a time to speak.
8 A time to love and a time to hate; A time for war and a time for peace.
11 He has made everything appropriate in its time.
This is our time for coasting.
So today I try to remember to celebrate. This is a wonderful season for my daughter. She is thriving. She is growing and learning. She is happy and beautiful. She is my heart. This is her time.
Does that mean that tomorrow won't be her time too? I have to erase that fear. Troubles will come, like the changing winds of the seasons. But, like the wind, the Holy Spirit stays with us throughout our seasons.
Loving us.
Guiding us.
Empowering us in our journey.
I am determined! I will not be afraid! I will allow myself to be free to enjoy the seemingly effortless coasting of this glorious season.
And I will thank God for the fruit.
How about you? Are you coasting these days too? Or perhaps this is a season of storms for you? Let us pray for you. Please leave your comments or Message me so that we can pray for you or celebrate with you during this part of your journey.
I am always blessed by your writing! You have a wonderful way with words, of putting things in perspective, of encouraging us.
ReplyDeleteBeing a parent of a child without challenges is hard enough - I can't imagine being in your shoes. I believe that God gives parents of children with challenges a special measure of grace and extra mercy and lots of patience!
Blessings to you!
Thank you Edwina! Always appreciate your comments and encouragement!
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